Replacement Happniess

I was not born happy in this world.... yes like all babies do i cried during my birth... why do babies cry when they are born???? they knew the world out is bad and not welcoming you so you cry you wont want to be exposed or simple come out of the shell.... so now i think way back... when was i happy????? hmmmm....on my 5th birthday not sure when.... my dad got me a red teddy bear... he came climbing up the stairs and i saw him from balcony and i ran and i hugged him.... i still remember that... it's registered in my mind ... i have the feel as if it happens in most of the movies... Dad got me everything and anything i wanted... point my at anything and i got it..... but mom was not like that.... why???

It's really a funny one.... Pls dont laugh... my mom and a few of her friends and thier kids we all went to naidu hall for shopping... this was also waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back.... and i cried for something .... i really liked it... and i know almost every kids in the town has that.... any guesses??????? I CRIED FOR A BARBIE DOLL !! LOLZ.......... see that time i cried and now am laughing my ass out... REPLACEMENT HAPPINESS............... We got a PC in 1998 itself... cool rite???? and when i was in 6th ma dad got me a cricket kit for 1200 bucks .... for me it was waaaaaaaaaay big money.... i said... "Pa thanks...."and later... life was fucked up..... i was soooooooo good at studies that i (many ppl aint know this ) flunked in a 7th.... so life was hard.... so how cleared ma 10th (86%) and changed school 11th.... fell in love ... not really... but that time i called it as pure love..... funny rite..... so again... studies was bad... cleared 12th with dignity had a big fight with my principal and me... so i call it DIGNITY(59%)........ then college.... agains gals... gals ... gals.....

( and on 31/08/2006 i got my firstcamera NIKON FM2..........exactally two years later 31/08/2008 i got NIKON D80...................)



I call gals as replaement happiness..... but onething is clear..... all gal frnds of mine give me happiness but they actually dont replace .... i only mean the happiness they give me is replaced by one and another..... each one is different and i cant forget them in my life........


I meet a gal then she departs... sad for some time.... then another gal .... she departs.... then another..... LIFE KEEPS GOING........................ so are really gals my happiness.......

FAMILY................GEORGE..... ARJUN JI.......THE WORK I DO..............FRIENDS........................


life is a cycle you get happiness and the very next day sad........ BALANCED .... nature's trick.....